Breaktime

when I was young I was

living in the forest

Laundries: places without

time she’s not coming back

he hangs his head

and shakes it. She still

of course knows everybody

but she talks a lot of non-sense

when she focuses on her

misery it’s a lot worse

then I’m going to

work and then back to

the hospital.

 

Because I walk in nature

it gives me so much energy

 

I have to remember to you

That I took it and I start

(I don’t like english) I

“ed” started that’s

What I meant I started

To read it and now no

and then you’re confusing

me and what was I saying

I started to read it and

you took it back

 

I would not have gone into

the sea without her

what does it look like?

wool, cracked earth…

it’s like the earth is made

of wool…cracked wool

“oops” she pulls aside

her top, her nipple pops out

oops again pop top out oops

top out pop oops “I want to

make love”

 

When she was little she said

to her mom, “when I grow

up I want to hug & kiss &

caress all the ladies & gentlemen

in the street, how lucky

are they going to be!”

 

no water—

honey thickened

liquids only

 

nectar consistency

oh God

“I don’t feel like singing

songs.”

“we’ll sing them to you.”

sing songs,

oh God

It’s freezing in here—

 

just remember this phrase

“I’m too blessed to be

stressed”

we’re living like gypsies.

I’m finished.

What would you want?

I don’t want anything.

It’s all equally impossible.

Something about some

medication suppressing

appetite.

What do you want?

I want to get out of this

thing.

What? The bed? The hospital?

 

The only way to get out

is to get better.

The guys who cleaned the

vents have a special

filter which is more

or less permanent

but since I’ve been out

of the house I haven’t

been able to make an

appointment.

Do you want to write

something in my journal?

What? That this is the

worst time in my life ever

 

Do you have something for

lips? Oh my back is breaking

this was faith who

says happy birthday to you

she owes me money, you

want me to squeeze some

in your hand? take

it on your finger. Your

lips are raw, go head

rub it in.

 

They have to be cleaned.

Call room service, the

Bed has to be made.

What do you mean?

Do I have to be graphic?

She’s done? She’s finished?

 

Could you just move me

around a little with the

cart?

 

Could I just move you

around…? Sorry I didn’t

get that.

 

Well I’ve been in this

position for 6 hrs.

Let me give you your

breathing treatment

and I’ll tell the nurse

that you need to be

changed.

 

Is she still on the

Zoloft? Yes, in the

morning. Can you lean your

head up just a little for

me? would you like to be

cleaned up?

 

I changed the diaper,

I put her in the bed pan

but she didn’t do anything

oh christ

come on. want to take

a break?

 

well she didn’t have one

in the hospital.

The fact that you can’t

use the stairs is infuriating

I guess the only way you

can get out is if you

know the code.

 

First I have to ask

Them if I can go upstairs

Cause I fell, I fell

A few times.

We won two contests

In California. 99 women

What year? Well now,

Let me think, we won

Twice,

What’s going on

upstairs?

They’re changing her

That must have been

some sound

we were called

chock full of notes

that’s a very witty name

all I do is give out money

getting upstairs is not my

department, let me see

if I can find somebody.

You must have had a

beautiful singing voice

 

so when is your poem

going to be finished?

Right now, it’s my last

word.

 

You know that the

stairs can not be used?

They’re locked.

So they cleaned you up?

 

How’s everything feeling?

You able to get dressed?

Flexiflo Quantum

Enteral pump

there was a bright mist

before my eyes.

They have an outside lab

that comes in

the phone will work Monday

they draw me twice a

day, are you tired ma?

They have ablutions in

the morning. Yeah everybody’s

getting fed and cleaned up

 

Flavored Oral Swab

can you remember? No

tissues in the mouth.

They’re taking good care

of her. Who’s that calling?

Have a good night.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

you are sometimes a

caracterture of yourself

I love you for free

you don’t have to pay

plunka, originally it was

a birch leaf.

Black Sea Roma

Festival

 

Rethink possible

patagonia san pellegrino

you found your eyes again

 

I’m a jelly fish

nosing in the garbage

she pulled out a paperbag

tossed away an empty coffee cup

unwrapped crumpled paper

popped a bit of bagel into her mouth

tubby red hair dyed thin straw blotch make-up

 

there was little that

could be done to

defend water from

the formidable

thirst of the

elephants.

 

a dead wet mouse

closed-circuit television

 

I just got to get a

smoke before I go

underground

 

park only within designated

parking spaces

display valid parking permit

on windshield

no repair work allowed

except in emergencies

parking at your own risk

vehicles without valid

permits,

abandoned cars and cars lacking current

registration will receive summonses

and/or be removed at owner’s expense

violators subject to summons by Police

Property of New York

City Housing Authority

 

It’s the law

 

clean up

after

your

dog

 

maximum

fine $100

public health law 1310

the anabolics

department of sanitation

no dumping drains to Hudson River

 

Upper West Side

leaves no room

for spontaneity

that’s the big laughs

faded from sight

on his death.

 

Human ruins.

The primitive hungers

that civilization to

maintain itself

must deny.

Your electricity charges

Transparent disc

Complete on one side

 

Your green energy

Source

 

you’re going to have

to unravel this one

 

vertical transportation

 

He was in it for

business and

in the end he found

out that they

were his pleasure.

 

The “Bushman Myth”

pertains to a certain

type of man who

is a type of outlaw.

 

These men are

compared to this

myth because of

their involvement in

killing the giraffe.

 

He sensationalized

their world with

sweeping landscape

shots.

 

The reason for the use

of taxidermy is to

romanticize the

unknown and create

a belief in a

culture’s primitivity.

 

Those who have

relied on words for

so long are

resistant to other

forms of discovery.

 

They remained

oppressed by the

desire to recuperate

the “Bushmen Myth.”

 

King Kong is a

fantastical creation

as a noble savage

intimately close to

nature, shunned

from modernity and

civilization (he is

out of place in New

York City and wrecks

havok there)

 

The nature of

culture change

is extremely

immediate.

 

a monopoly of signs

and the phantasms

they provoke

 

I just vomited in the office.

It would be good to see you.

 

nightshade

I had him for a workshop

ipod nano cases

rhinestone encrusted

colors on gold chains

they also had multicolored

rhinestone encrusted

jesus pendants or

medallions on gold

chains

an so much smutty under

wear looks really gross

 

a pocket of reception

I’ll be home in 15

minutes

stop and write

dropped your mouse

9 voicemails 10 missed

calls and you

know what they

are? Prison.

Every one begins with

an automated

voice that says

zero.

 

STA scrubber room

212-712-4236

 

put like a really beautiful

park there there’s a

marsh there

even though its far away

from the water its

all one lot

some people feel if

I’m living there and there’s

a light shining in my window

and I’m trying to

fall asleep

they sneak on

so I’ve been to the

vacant lot you’re really

close the guy who owns

it nobody’s doing anything

to that corner its

like a boat graveyard

how would they control

would that be open?

free launching

you work in health?

—yeah, administration.

It’s fun you know

everybody talks about

how nothing can be

accomplished.